Journal Entry:
Wed May 23, 2012, 6:44 PM
To be honest I don't quite believe it yet. When my name was called, it was then it hit me, 'oh crap, I'm here...!'. Yes, here it comes, the typical 'just yesterday it was my first day in high school'. Well, high school is full of cliches, stereotypes and labels so this post won't damage any of it's reputation.
I've been waiting for this day for so long. I am free. Not just because of the homework and the teachers, but from the stress, the pressure, the drama and all that shit. From those fakers and players, those who made those four years a living hell. To those bitches who I just want to high-five in the face with a chair.
Oh, such cliche, it's a new start, it's time that I dedicate my time and complete focus to what I want to study and love. To show others wrong and to show those who are trying to pass me with short cuts how it is done, right and well. I also know it's time I move on in some ways, which I'm gonna, trust me. (I have a system and a list)
It is such a nice feeling to be out of there, I can feel weightless. I can feel, if I may say so, grown up and ready, scared, but at the same time, ready.
Now is the time to grow some fucking balls for real. The only thing I thank high school for is for letting me know who to trust and how to deal with those who I can't. For those tasks, now I know who will success on their own and who will fail by wanting to be others. I know it's time to leave the breakdowns behind because there are people out there who will just take advantage of that, I knew that already, I was just so damn stupid to trust the wrong people, but here's the trick, they don't know that. You know, those who believe the world revolves around them and everybody loves them, they will break down first, then they will just think people will fall right into their trap, no dear, now people have other things to worry about, themselves. Maybe a few will help, but they won't be foolish enough to fall for it. For those downs I went trough I know that, even if each fall feels worst than the previous one, I will get up if I put all my strength to do it.
I know what I got, I know what I can do; cocky moment, but I know how high I can go and it's pretty high if you ask me. High enough to test myself and prove others wrong. To be honest, I can't wait to see what's coming next, once in a while I want time to stop and go back, yeah, who doesn't want that? but it's exciting knowing that, when I wake up now, I won't want to stay in bed to hide from the pressure and weight of the world. No, now I just want to let out what I have in this mind of mine, open new doors for myself and reach new tasks, and learn what I haven't and want to learn.
Some have said college is hard, others that is not that hard as people say it is. I just believe that I will see it for myself and give out the review for the next graduate. I also believe is how I go by, besides, college isn't hard, life is. We just, as humans, have to blame it on something else to see if it'll go away to have less tension.
A lot of graduates around here, I wish you good luck. If you got what it takes, if you got enough passion in what you love, you will get there in no time and with a huge smile of satisfaction on your face and a high shot of adrenaline trough your veins.
Bye-bye, battlefield.
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Watching: RAW